F5 all day!

>it's horrible how these sites are designed
Yes.

Yes, not so much with YouTube anymore. That phase ended for me around 6-7 years ago. I ended up going on anime binges, then TV show binges, and for the last three years it's been imageboards. Now that's slowly fading out. I'm not sure what's going to end up becoming the new one. It's getting harder for me to enjoy things as much. I'm starting to want to play video games again, maybe that'll be it.

>>1975
What about film? I've been watching 2-3 movies a day now for a few months. Mostly 90's- early 2000s american shit.

>>1961
Holy fuck.
>Youtube
>Imageboards (literally all of them)
>Knowyourmeme
>Funnyjunk
Literally months of my life. All because of my escapism addiction based around me wanting to "escape" from any and all of my negative emotions. But, this process of escaping also brings suffering in the form of extreme guilt and self-hatred which I cope with by escaping MORE!
Thank God I have been seeing a therapist so I may extract myself from this hedonistic infinitely-recurring pit of sound and noise.
>reblocked youtube
Website and program blocking software are God's gift. Leechblock works very well on my computer, my phone on the other hand...
https://www.proginosko.com/leechblock/
https://www.tapatalk.com/groups/leechblock/what-happened-to-the-legacy-versions-t342.html

>>1979
Yes, I've been on binges with films as well. I should have noted that alongside TV shows. I also watch a lot of stuff between 90s and early 2000s. I've tended to gravitate more towards the late 70s and 80s more recently. Up until February I was watching around 1-2 films a week. I take a notion sometimes to go back even further to watching between the 1930s and 1950s.

Jesus christ, you guys are literally me!
Every time I had something bad happen to me, I watched so many Anime shows, it's insane. Last time I had a bad time finantially, I re-watched all of Star Trek. Literally all of it (this was before Discovery and Picard came out) but year, I watched every single episode of every single show, and every single movie.

I watched over 600 Anime series (including all sequels and every movie), this was mainly when I was younger. I mostly now watch the entire pool of videos from youtubers. I watched every video of The Anime Man, Akidearest, and their new Trash Taste podcast. I also watched most of CDawgVA videos, even though I don't even like him. I watched most of Glass Reflection videos, and pretty much all of Scott Manley's Videos. Just last week, I watched twenty or so Kitboga videos alone, which are 30 - 120min each. Of the 16-18 hours per day that I'm awake, I spend around 10-12 hours on youtube and other video websites.

I literally can't help myself, because the moment I go off of it, the crushing depression makes me wanna kill myself.

>A few months ago my therapist convinced me to put my phone and laptop in my parents room for the night, where I can't access it.
>After doing so I sit on the basement couch and feel the emotion I have been avoiding for all of this time.
>It's like a small shot of poison in my soul.
>Sitting there I can see it from a meta 3rd-person perspective.
>It doesn't feel good, but it's really not the end of the world.
>Decide to change, and reach for a more stable happiness.
>Feel better immediately.

>>2027
Sucks if both parents are dead and you live alone.

I can't help but open a certain app to see if someone has messaged me, even though I don't want to talk to anyone anymore
I want to drop this habit someday

>>2069
That's better than leaving notifications on.

I always get ensnared by turning my computer on first thing after going to the bathroom after waking up. Then I sit there mindlessly browsing until I'm ready to pass out or start getting extremely hungry.

>>1982
wew I think I read every manga with the word isekai in the title back in the day, I am considering seeing a therapist, what should I talk to him about? how should I approach my parents about it, how should I find a good one?
they might decline altogether.

what specifically should I say I wanna go in for,

>>2027
same questions for you,
>>1982
I like blocking it manually with sys32 since it's a pain to unblock,

another thing that helped me immensely is removing my TV(it was right in front of my bed) and having my habit tracker being placed somewhere visible, habit tracker and a work journal are kino I also have a list of things I rewrite every day can share it if you guys are intereste just quotes I like a lot.

>>2069
>someday
Why not now?
>>2082
>what should I talk to him about?
Only you know that. Therapists only work if you want to change your life situation or way of being.
The greatest thing my therapist did for me was to give me the tools to help myself. The most significant tool was born out of a conversation on both that;
1. I was unsatisfied with my life.
and
2. The way I imagined fixing my life was through categorizing it, in a written form.
Therefore, my therapist handed me a small yellow legal-pad; the utility of which was revealed after I came up with the idea of writing the goals I wanted to get done before the next meeting, every meeting. This gave me not only the clarity in what to do with my time, but also a weekly dose of accountability for my actions. I failed often, the legal-pad even stopped working after a while, but I have slowly redirected my life to a more satisfying place.
>removing my TV
>having my habit tracker being placed somewhere visible
>a work journal
Stuff like this is what therapists can help with, even if it's only added accountability (you feel more guilty for not doing something you promised to do). The coolest stuff is when a therapist suggests a solution or problem you havent even thought of.
>how should I approach my parents about it
Only you know your parents, anon.
>how should I find a good one?
I found mine through government programs because I've been medically diagnosed with Autism and ADHD; you'll just have to build the mental fortitude to look such things up online, possibly through local and federal government programs like I did, possibly through some different methods. Apparently, therapists work through building a relationship, a certain rapport. You can't really know of a therapist's compatibility with you until you meet them, apparently the company I go to allow you to switch between different therapists if one isn't working out. It's always a little awkward at the beginning, but not that bad because they don't judge. Female's work fine, I assume because they're more naturally empathetic.
>what specifically should I say I wanna go in for,
It could be something vague life "self-improvement", "self refinement", or "getting my life on track". Or, something that your mental perception of your "idealized self" (your future fully self-actualized self) has, but the current you, does not.

>>2111
>removing my TV
>having my habit tracker being placed somewhere visible
>a work journal
you don't know how many failures I had to get through to come to these conclusions,

thanks a lot for the other advice, the stuff you mentioned that I already knew was life changing, the other stuff must be pretty good.

if you ever wanna hit me up my emails [email protected](this is not a joke).

I keep putting this off but this could genuinely help me out a lot. thanks a lot lad

I feel you.
It's like those sites are designed to hook you on the most useless, meaningless content. Even "educational" videos are shallow in reality.
>Hurr. Here's the top ten facts about Alaska!
You FEEL like you are smarter, you FEEL like you have learned something. In reality, you've only picked up some trivial factoid.

I think engaging in that sort of content fries your brain in a way: making it harder to focus and expecting short hits of dopamine in everything. Reading is more challenging for me than it used to be. Even focusing anime is harder.
I'm trying to eliminate it from my life. It hasn't led to anything good. Just a big timesink.

>>2111
lad I doubt you're still here but I did end up going to therapy for this and I ended up so much better, had a really fun day today.

How are you doing lad? I know you probably won't answer but see you space cowboy.

Same, I hate it so fucking much. I currently waste my entire day on youtube, tiktok, imageboards, twitter. I can't stop, I don't know what else to do, everything else is boring, but scrolling social media is boring too. It geniously feels like an hell you can't escape.

>>2111
I am diagnosed with adhd and autism too, I changed therapist 7 times because they're all awful in my country, especially where I live. Do you have any other tip for those who can't go to a therapist? I tried everything you said, I tried with journals, lists, quitting social media. I honestly don't know what else to try. In a few days I have to meet a new therapist that I hope will prescribe me Ritalin, it's my last chance. If that doesn't work I'm afraid I will fail at life forever.

I can't stand anyone on yt. They're all so fake.
Just like everything, greed ruined something that could've been good.
i doubt it'd be possible to have gatekept the internet, or anything else that's profitable.
No one care about people or the soul anymore.

Anyways, I can't find anything on yt that interests me, or anywhere else on the internet. I just have zero interests/hobbies.
I stopped playing WoW on private servers, and I'm just kind of standing around in MC, doing a bit of fishing.

Wish the internet was filled with interesting stuff, but it's just pack with mindless golems looking for attention and money.

Hope the world ends soon.

The opposite.
Everything and everyone on yt is fake and annoying. They all just want money the easy way. Every channel has a patreon, paypal and twitch link. They all think they're quirky and deserve lots of money.
yt, like everything else involving money, is cancer.
I just try to find interesting videos on alternate sites, but even those are filled with the same faggots.

It's impossible to find anything good on yt anymore since it's flooded with golems(no matter what you search for, you'll only find videos of people playing games with whatever word in the title). Every video site has become shit with these greedy golems.
I try to find videos that are at least an hour long, so that I don't have to constantly browse for something new.

The "people" on yt are so annoying.
It doesn't matter what you search for, all you'll find are people playing games(with whatever word you're looking for in the title).
And everyone has that same fake, gay, shitty voice. They all think they're so eccentric. And every channel has paypal, patreon or kofi, or some other gay shit linked.
And everyone has also become a cuck beta sjw.
And then you have the 10min faggots.
Everything is shit and every "alternative" site is just as shitty, since the same faggots are hoping to get in on those sites and become big first. Money ruins everything. That's why people used adblock - because of the overreach of yt ads. If they controlled themselves, then no-one would have adblocks.
You could try to sort search results according to date, but you'll still just end up with an infinite amount of faggots trying to become big and pretending they're special, intelligent and eccentric.
This is why I like crazy people. They're somewhat real and infinitely more interesting than the 10min fags or gameplay fags.

>That's why people used adblock - because of the overreach of yt ads.
>If they controlled themselves, then no-one would have adblocks.
>implying

A decade later, this passage is more relevant than ever: https://austincap.github.io/projects/csa.html

>I set my fingers on the glowing wireless brushed steel mechanical keyboard and lightly fingered the clit-mouse in the center. I started the night with more reddit. I found that the user interface, the mechanism of infodrug ingestion, mattered almost was much as it did for regular chemical drugs. Doing reddit on my desktop was to doing it on my phone as eating pot brownies was to smoking. You had to get a good app to do it on your phone properly too. A poorly formatted interface is fatiguing, the equivalent of body load. Fortunately reddit is a social infodrug making the body load less relevant. If you use, it's only a matter of time before you start participating in the community. This was the opposite of the next infodrug on my itinerary, Netflix. Like heroin, binge watching TV is a pleasant alternative to thinking. On my phone it was like snorting bumps. On my desktop it was like full-on injection. The whole time I was Netflixing my brain was focused on nothing but what I was consuming. I barely moved for 6 hours. When I came out of my tv-binge coma I grabbed my perfectly weighted wireless mouse, in order to mix up the route of administration. I tried some chans after that. 4chan. 420chan. 8chan. Similar to reddit in a lot of ways I always considered these to be the psychedelics of infodrugs. They opened my mind, although I occasionally saw things I didn't really want to see. I went back to reddit. Boredom was no longer a feeling I experienced, similar to how true pain and hunger were nearly eradicated with the invention of anesthesia and cheap food in the 1900s. So long as I had a data connection I could always be indefinitely entertained.

>>7953
There were already essays about this in the 90s.

>>7960
That's not an essay though, it's a novel about a NEET.

I think that's a very important topic. It's crazy, I don't know how our primitive brains are supposed to deal with infinite entertainment. Maybe some good habits may be helfpful but the tendency to endlessly consoom stuff from the internet is overwhelming. It's so harmful but gets ignored because corporations to function need endless army of golems consooming their product.

Yeah, they're called infodrugs. Like regular drugs the give you the illusion of something necessary, some sort of "nutrition", when in fact they're just wasting your time. Also like chemdrugs, they're fine to use in moderation