but is it cowardly to no longer bother?
got nothing to bother with really...
not like anything is real here anyway
nor others online too, anything really
it's a funny little chamber here
The other day a video of some director came up.
And that director said expression is what keeps sanity about them.
But what's the point of expression if nothing happens after?
You could say that there are inferior modes of expression: a shitpost is the lowest class among them.
Some other people say we all just need to feel like we exist.
But what's an existence to an anonymous internet shut-in?
Sometimes its nice to read what others go through, because you exist through them.
When does writing turn into something you no longer bother to read?
Well, when it no longer invites a paranoia that it IS you writing. Or a resonance into a part of you unknown.
To feel like you exist with higher forms of expression requires the medium to exist outside of yourself, and that's done through the attention of others animating it into reality.
But people are painful.
The only recourse is to express to oneself. Release a movie in your own room.
That's more preferable than dealing with the pain of talking to others
Well, toodles folks :~)
Just write a blog post instead of blogposting here.
>>8672
You are right
Most people stop caring about online "friends" once they turn off their devices
Lonely people also go back to being alone doing the same
It's pointless
>>8690
hehe 😎
>>8735
This is a discussion! And rarely do people comment on blogs.
You are welcome (or the mods are) to delete this thread if it is too off topic.
>>8741
An idea of "caring" can be invoked, but it seems a bit different to what umbrella experience is.
Here's the central question:
How do _you_ feel like you exist?
What do you immerse yourself in?
Anon, your post wasn't lost on me. I feel it deeply and painfully.
>To feel like you exist with higher forms of expression requires the medium to exist outside of yourself, and that's done through the attention of others animating it into reality.
>But people are painful.
>The only recourse is to express to oneself. Release a movie in your own room.
I think about this so much. My relationship with the concept of expression is complicated and bitter. I do seem to have a sense like I can't exist unless I express myself. It's painful to be locked inside my own universe - but to express myself and to be vulnerable enough to exist outside of myself... It's too excruciating for me to cope with. Neither option is good. Sometimes it feels like the only option is the freedom of death.
The irony is that my post exists at all.