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No.1168

People live meaningless lives. They waste their precious days over nothing. No matter how old they get, they'll continue to say "My real life hasn't started yet. The real me is still asleep, that's why my life is such garbage". They continue to tell themselves that. And they age. And on their deathbeds, they will finally realize the life they lived was the real thing.

No.1169

i should watch kaiji......

No.1172

>>1168
I'm 34 now and reached at least the "too late"-tier. Who cares, animu and vidya > RL.

No.1182

Life is meaningless.

No.1188

>>1172
But life begins when you're 30.

No.1189

>>1188
My life ended a long time ago.

No.1612

>>1172
based

I personally am veyond fucked but I was never a failed normalfag who wanted a part of what life could offer so it does not matter to me.

No.1820

>>1172
It's never too late, never. Even the elderly can impose their will onto reality.

No.1889

>>1168
>be me
>dropped out of secondary school because of stress and an abusive assistant
>failed college coding course
>have no interest in doing any more courses because fuck that zoom shit
>have no friends
>kissless virgin, remember someone who wanted to date me but stage 5 autism kicked in and i rejected them
>not even interested in going outside anymore
>not even interested in leaving my room anymore
>dad recently turned 60 so my parents are obviously old and they're definitely wondering where it all went wrong
>all i do anymore is eat snacks and dick around on the internet all day
I'm almost 20 and I already know my life is fucked beyond belief with zero chance of improvement.

No.1892

>>1889
I would like to say that 20 years old is really young and not too late but then I realized my life hasn't improved much from when I was 20 years old either.

No.1930

>>1892
Did you try to improve it?

No.1981

>>1889
>>1892
>>1930
I'm an almost 26yo NEET and have been seeing a therapist for 2-3 years now. My life is slowly improving. I've gone through some NGE-tier soul searching, and via a deeper understanding of why my life has ended up this way; I have made great lengths into imposing my desires on to the fabric of reality itself.
Turn from despair and into hope.

No.1992

37yo here.
I fumbled in the last inches of my university carreer, I did all the courses but I never wrote a bachelor's thesis.

I have a measly job such that I can just barely scrape by, but I'm in debt pretty much constantly.

My parents are both deceased, I've been seeing a therapist for almost two years now, and I hope I can at least elevate my life such that I can live a lifestyle that isn't soul-crushing every single second of my life.

I had moments in my life, where I was too poor to buy food.

I'm not a virgin. but I haven't been with a woman for over ten years now, technically, I "reverted" into virginity, I feel like. I don't even know how to talk to a woman anymore.

Needless to say I don't have any friends. Due to bad hygiene, I lost most of my teeth. I'm balding and I'm "flabby fat" i.e. I'm pretty skinny, except for a bulge around my belly, I have technically zero muscle mass. Very bad physique, and due to age, I don't think there's much I can change.
I probably have a colon condition, I have constant pain the center-left area, right below my belly button, but I haven't worked up the courage to see a doctor about that. It's been over six months like this and it's not getting worse but it kinda fluctuates, some days are better, some are worse.
I'm afraid it's cancer, and I'm scared to be confronted with it (all of my family members died of some form of cancer. The oldes family member got 74 years old, which isn't much I think).

If I die from some form of cancer, I'll be almost a relief, since at almost 40, I don't want to go on like this for the next twenty years or so. Either that, or I'll live to 70 or so and have an OK life, if the psychotherapy works and I manage to improve my life a bit.

In Op's picture, I'm in the second line from the top.

No.1996

>>1992
What do you do for work, anok? Btw are you high on cocaine? Your mannerisms remind me of my experience with cocaine. Apologies if I’m wrong.

No.1997

>>1996
anon *

No.2010

>>1996
I went to university for computer sciences, which I actually liked. I can learn really good, but I struggle with everything else in life. The reason why I didn't do a bachelor's thesis is because no subject or project was given to me. I was supposed to "find something" myself, which I can't do.
A couple years ago I got asked by an acquaintance of mine, if I could help with the tedious job of doing accounting in the company he works for. I said yes, and they gave me the job to essentially stare at around 600 Excel files per month and see if they don't look as if people try to bullshit with their work hours, etc. It's a nursing services provider. Once I'm done with the tables and the accounting (usually takes around three to five days) I'm free the rest of the month. The pay is really, really bad, and I can just pay rent, electricity, Internet, health insurance and groceries, but literally nothing else. I get about one to two pieces of clothing per year. I still wear the same clothes I had for 20 years.

Now, do I do drugs? No. None. No alcohol, no cigarettes, nothing. I tried drugs in University, actually many different kinds (including shrooms, amphetamines, etc.) but I never liked any of them. I'm kinda to scared to take them, I already have next to no control over my life, so giving up the last bit of control over my body seems like a horror story to me. And aside of that, I simply cannot afford them.
The last bottle of beer I had, was around one and a half years ago. I haven't seen the inside of a bar or pub in around six years, and the last time I was at a club (where people dance to loud music) was I think in 2009.
I can't imagine going to a place like that. I once went to a McDonald's in the afternoon, and I stood in the line for around two minutes and then ran away, because the people in there simply scared me. This was I think in 2017.

t. >>1992

No.2011

I'm in this kind of weird situation, where all I can do in my life, is being a good student. But I have no people skills, and even going outside I'm like a fish out of water.
I literally can't handle even things like opening letters sometimes, because it's like remote interaction with someone that isn't aware of my predicament or rather expects a "normal person" in me.

My life is borderline unbearable, if I'm not distracting myself with IBs, Youtube, Anime, or masturbating.
I love Projekt Melody, I so want more V-tuber porn. To me it's the evolution of regular 3D Hentai games. I might be able to buy a VR headset some day. I know this is gonna be even more unhealthy in my situation, but seriously, at my age and in my position I don't really care.

t. >>1992

No.2086

No matter your age, life is technically meaningless. You live, you die. No use worrying about the status of your life at any point.

No.2121

>>2086
all this does is disregard the fact that vanity is one of the fundamental drives of being human

No.2160

>>1889
you are only 19, you are incredibly young, also you jsut admitted to being a fakecel, so you are definetly an average person, you say the only reason stopping you from education is this temporary online learning stage, which will end when everyone is vaccinated,

trust me anon you are fine, you have your entire life ahead of you, dont fumble it

No.2160

>>1889
you are only 19, you are incredibly young, also you jsut admitted to being a fakecel, so you are definetly an average person, you say the only reason stopping you from education is this temporary online learning stage, which will end when everyone is vaccinated,

trust me anon you are fine, you have your entire life ahead of you, dont fumble it

No.2160

>>1889
you are only 19, you are incredibly young, also you jsut admitted to being a fakecel, so you are definetly an average person, you say the only reason stopping you from education is this temporary online learning stage, which will end when everyone is vaccinated,

trust me anon you are fine, you have your entire life ahead of you, dont fumble it

No.3475

I want it to end already, I don't care that I am "young" (22)
I want to ignore everything, I dont want to do anything, I'm too afraid so I can't even end it myself or ask for someone to do it for me
I feel better sometimes but the misery comes back, I have it ok, it's my mind that ruins everything

No.3477

What's the point in posting this? Are you a troll who came here to make fun of neets?

No.3478

>>3477
There are always those who hate themselves.