I don't want to die alone...
It's horrible to think about.
Not wanting to die alone is one of those silly ideas that I can't get out of my head. Like having children, it's unrealistic but an intrinsic human desire I think.
>We are as forlorn as children lost in the woods. When you stand in front of me and look at me, what do you know of the griefs that are in me and what do I know of yours. And if I were to cast myself down before you and weep and tell you, what more would you know about me than you know about Hell when someone tells you it is hot and dreadful? For that reason alone we human beings ought to stand before one another as reverently, as reflectively, as lovingly, as we would before the entrance to Hell.
I feel you, OP.
Dying alone is better than being surrounded by people you hate.
I always hear the quote from Tuck Everlasting. "Do not fear death, but rather the unlived life. You don't have to live forever. You just have to live." Then it makes me feel a dark pain that I'm unable to live as people from the past could. Life is so much more regulated and in shackles compared to other generations before. I wonder if I'll ever really get to know what enjoying life truly is.
>Life is so much more regulated and in shackles compared to other generations before
There's a sweet spot that varies depending on your makeup. The vast majority of people could not be anything but smelly, ignorant serfs.
I'm the complete opposite, I don't want to be remembered.
I'm too old for serious romantic relationships.
I'm almost 40. I'm living alone and almost never leave my house. I have a Job so I can sustain myself (I have no more living relatives).
All relationships I had failed, so I've given up on them. At this point, I'm quite sure this will go on at least till I'll retire. After which point a miracle must happen so I don't die alone.
All my friends have made changes in their lives, such as partners, marriage, kids, carreer, etc.
Being in a state like this is like falling into a black hole. You'll die of natural causes long before you get ripped apart, but you'll never get out either.