There are a few.
1. Fix up health in anyway possible
Which seems to be slowly working, could do more
2. Figure out something to make online for money
Because it's too painful to work with other people
3. Obliterate all concepts of self
Which has been lacking.
Used to have a goal of learning languages, but that's been lacking too. Losing interest in anime plummeted my interest in Japanese, although a spitefulness may bloom from that; to learn the language in spite.
Learning a language is ironic when you're a shut-in.
Future is hazy.
At times I wouldn't mind just fading away because all of the above goals feel flimsy in retrospect. It just feels like masturbating something I would rather kill
Sometimes it's just really hard to give a shit about yourself when you practice not giving a shit about anything in order to maintain sanity
You know, I'll tack on a fourth goal there:
4. to REALLY not give a shit
Because it's clear there's some residual concern for things that don't matter.
Tired of stuffing out the heart or intuition or the metaphysical part for fitting in with a bunch of clowns.
Takes awhile to sponge off all the ink they soak into you for the formative years of life, forging the rest until the afterlife
You don't have to do ANYTHING.
GOALS are things you want to do.
PEOPLE ARE VOLATILE, SO DON'T BOTHER MAKING THEM HAPPY THEY'LL JUST BITCH ABOUT MORE SHIT.
I'm going to listen to my insides even if it fucking kills me because I would rather be dead than be a fucking slave
1. Publish volume 2 of NEETpride Magazine by 9/9/2022.
2. Publish chapter 2 of Magical Thinking by 12/12/2022.
3. Get a functional prototype of my bounty hunter game by 3/3/2023.
4. Get a job never.
To be comfy
To create sentient android waifus that who offer not just brain-melting, pelvis-shattering sex, but unconditional love and peace.
Suicide.
To live peacefully
